motherfucker = redeemer

im a pathetic human being. i've slept 90% of my weekend away. i have to be awake in three hours to go to work. i havent taken my lexapro all week (yes all week). i cant sleep, i dont know if its because i've slept all weekend or because i havent taken my meds. im in a state of blah at the moment. i have a really bad taste in my mouth.

sometimes, i wish i were dead. i wouldnt be around to bother jen or her parents anymore. my sisters wouldnt have to worry about me. meh maybe i am better off dead.