abscess memory with broken fingers

sometimes you have to wonder, what did you ever do to get the life you have. if our lives are planned before we're born, jesus fuck someone pretty sick is running the show. oh wait, not everyones life is full of hurt and loss. oh boy emo is me. nothing in particular in my life sucks at the moment. im doing okay. but i hate feeling so alone. gah its the same old shit. i bitch and moan about the same things. lonely this lonely that. yet, im not out meeting anyone. throw me a bone please. i know theres someone out there who will think im the coolest thing since buttered toast...but im not seeing it. ...and i havent seen it.

war on all sides