y halo thar

my teef they hurt

i wish i had a pair of pliers to yank all of my fucking teeth out with cause they've been bothering the fuck out of me. im feeling really emo at the moment. meh

steer away from these rocks

i hate getting in trouble at work.  i just got a stern finger pointing for "unprofessional" notes.  i could feel my face getting really warm.  i mean its nothing to get in a tizzy about..but still.  hopefully this weekend we can get the fairlane inspected, because i want to drive it in the nice fall weather.  i just want to drive everywhere in the fairlane.  *sigh* a call

sleep will not come to this tired boy tonight

my head is a jumbled mess. i wish i had the willpower do things, like get out of bed on the weekend. i wish i didnt have gay men soliciting me for sex. when i post that im looking for a friend, im not looking for a gay fuck buddy. i have nothing against gay people, in fact i was kinda of flattered but i want nice chubby girl to snuggle with, not some hairy dude. this disturbs me. i wish i could sleep, but i dont feel good and i have smelly gas.

Once again, I'm in trouble with my only friend
She is papering the window panes
She is putting on a smile
Living in a glass house

Once again, packed like frozen food and battery hens
Think of all the starving millions
Don't talk politics and don't throw stones
Your royal highnesses

Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
Well of course I'd like to stay and chew the fat
Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
But someone's listening in.

Once again, we are hungry for a lynching
That's a strange mistake to make
You should turn the other cheek
Living in a glass house

Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
Well of course I'd like to stay and chew the fat
Well of course I'd like to sit around and chat
But someone's listening in.

i think my desktops hott

in other words, jens dad and i bought three guns for $23.

Build me up and knock me down

I hatw being on a high that makes me feel like I could do anything in my life, and then being knocked down by someones or somethings retardedness. I want to try winging myself from going to my therapist because its not like it helps me anymore. All we talk about is how lonely I am. Its not worth $67 every two weeks for someone to talk to.

And if you lose yourself, could you take me, too?

i laugh when i look at the realm of chaos. for christsakes the guestbook was named brandygreene. i feel like rambling, but its the same old same old.

i miss teenage angst

and i stumbled onto you
as you stumbled over me
and you say the fates were cruel
for throwing us together
i always loved you so
especially when you'd go
all the world must know
all the world must know
that i loved you so

it's a pity we're apart
it's a shame you broke my heart
but i've got a new girlfriend
she looks a lot like you dear
no one could ever do dear
all the world must know
that i loved you so
especially when you'd go
especially when you'd go
especially when you'd go
away and leave me here
all the world must know

pennies for sale
pennies for sale
pennies for sale
pennies for sale

its so fun to relate

meh summers gone. its cold outside. does it matter? its not like i did anything this summer. i went to the outdoor flea market once and the indoor one like twice. i went about five yardsales, i went to the junk yard maybe four times. meh

it mattered to us, it mattered to me

i'm having a moment. i've come to the conclusion that brandy has completely blown me off (thanks jen!). i take that back, im not having a moment, im having a week. its been full of irrational fears of being fired, loneliness, and a trunk full of guns. theres not enough home cooked meals in my life, or kitties falling asleep at my side. theres no one to make decent conversation with (meepy moos when i talk to her).

meh

Please teacher

Where's my hot alien with pinkish red hair and a killer body.

I don't want to be fat anymore. I can't exercise because I can barely move ten feet without my back or my legs feeling like they're going to give out. I can't believe I've gotten this bad. I can't fit in my car I can't tie my shoes I can barely stand to take a shower. I get sores every where. I can barely wipe my own ass. I can't afford clothes Im so fucked. I want to die

I know you are but what am i

I hate when songs make me cry.

Come on die young

So the day after my birthday. I feel eternally the same. I was offended I didn't get a cake. Oh well I didn't need it. I feel ugly and nasty. I dontt know I don't love myself. Im posting this from my wing. Im listening to mogwai and txting josh and msning mickey.

I wish I could get a girlfriend or something or someone

Warm squishy

test

september seventh, nineteen seventynine a date that will live in infamy

do androids dream of electric sheep?

so i watched blade runner for the first time tonight..it was pretty cool i must say. i could see how it influenced the maker of snatcher, ghost in the shell, and everything else i find cool. great movie...netflix it.

turnin on the screw

fixing up a car is harder then i thought it would be. wheres overhauling when you need them? work this week, was work as usual. my cube mate moved which makes me kinda sad, cause he was fun to work with. hes gone though, so i can get more done in a day heh. my birthday is next friday, i totally expect it to blow. i remember my mom telling me when you get older, no one cares about you during birthdays and christmas. i also requested off my birthday so i can lay around and mope.

oh bother