Judge, Jury & Executioner

words. i did stuff today. bought food, bought clothes, argued, yelled, hugged a cat, walked in on a black lady in a dressing room, ate cheese and pepperoni, yawned, watched porn, now sleep.

best anime opening evar

osama bin kefka

yay so i can finally drive the fairlane on the road. i need to get the heater working though bleh. i drove it to the gas station earlier and to get food, it didnt miss a beat. we did loose a hubcap which kinda disappoints me. work has been really busy this week, i was going to call of today because of a cold, but i felt bad because we were so backed up with work so i went in. i got an ass reaming at the begining of the week, and thanks for all the hard work yesterday. heh. i wussed out of my dentists appointment tomorrow.

i keep the wolf from the door
but he calls me up
calls me on the phone
tells me all the ways that he's gonna mess me up
steal all my children
if i don't pay the ransom
but i'll never see him again
if i squeal to the cops

i suck with money

i fucked up my finances again. i thought my insurance was due next week, but its due tuesday. i forsee no money for lunch and overdraft fees and angry glares. i wish i made more money, bleh. this past week was typical, my toothache is gone and i worked a full week. i went to see the pumpkins friday. i had fun, but it didnt move me. the yahoo personals girl is still emailing me. heh can i borrow some money?

im talking to you, from my videotape

this week has been a cluster fuck. i went to the dentist, found out i have an abcessed tooth. work has been work, nothing different there. some chicks been trying to get a hold of me via yahoo personals, i wonder if shes real. i've found out some of the best feelings in life are when your curled up in a ball squeezing a plump meow. i downloaded the grindhouse movies...planet terror was much better then death proof, though i did enjoy the ending of death proof. i also downloaded the new radiohead album. i liked the eraser better, but it does have very good songs on it. im going to see sp2 this friday with jen, hopefully that should be fun. i need to see about getting this tooth yanked soon, it doesnt hurt, but it bothers me..i can tell its mocking me.

it feels so weird to not have laundry to do on a saturday. i should have fixed the fairlanes exhaust this weekend, but i just didnt feel like messing with it. you're my center when i spin out of control, on videotape on videtape, on videotape

this is my way of saying goodbye
because i can't do it face to face
i'm talking to you after it's too late
from my videotape

i wanted to be in a band

but a dear friend stole my drums and a guitar and amp. :(

i guess i sorta i lied when i said its not that bad

abcess why have you forsaken my tooth? oh thats right, i dont take care of myself. sorry, i forgot. i lost my bank card somewhere, but i dont care, i wont be able to eat. i can barely drink anything to take my pills. speaking of my pills, the tylenol 3 really knocked my ass out. it also gave me chills, i had to use two blankets...thats very unusual for me. i had a lexapro dream. something about this junk yard jen knew of that was free. it was weird. the cars were on orange balloons. go figure.

life isn't always fair

why is it good people always die so early? why does anyone whos affected my life in any dramtic way die? its hard to think someone who you have such prolific memories about can just not exist anymore. why cant whoever or whatever take truely pathetic people like me, and spare the great ones like maria or my mother. i know if and when maria passes my mother will there waiting for her with open arms and thank her for all shes done for me and my sister

Walk away to save your face

I should be snoozing instead im listening to music and posting. People or things don't really change do they? I hate being so lonely. I want something new to whine about. I remember coming in from a night out with joey/brandy and talking to my mother about life. I really miss talks like that. Crashing down again. Brandy messaged me to tell me shes not dead, and was mumbling something about calling me. She moved to michigan. I laughed. My chest has been hurting lately. Hopefully ill die.

Someday we'll wave hello and wish we'd never waved goodbye.