its a sham we're apart

yeah sham. sometimes lifes a cluster fuck. i had such a crappy day at work, not because my job sucks, i just didnt seem like i was all there. i kept losing my thoughts jumbling what i was saying. i even clocked out coming back from last break bleh. i hate the feeling you get when people die.

hiiiii wassup... yup this is totally randm but.. im moving near you next week and I wont knwo anybody who lives there... so thought id hit u up to say hi since u live there.. if this message didnt scare u off already haha.. send me an email and u can find my contact info right on my ms page.. hit me back xoxoxo

geeky odd bored lonely

im looking for someone who will listen to me complain about inane things. im a boring person, and can barely keep an email conversation going, but i want to try. i spend my weekends doing nothing because i have no friends here. im never really in the position to meet new people. 'cause going to a bar or where ever else just to sit and wait for someone to say something to you is, well, lame. im sure people who share my interests dont hang out at bars anyways. im not orginally from around here, so thats one reason why i have no one here. i have friends and family begging me to come back to texas where im from...but..its texas for effing sake.

i came to pa for a girl, well the girl ran off to be with someone cooler then me. so yeah, the only friend i have here is said girl which sucks, but what can you do? i like anime, old cars, fat cats, and dusty cameras. i like hanging out, and loathe going out. bah

i want to say things, but im drawing a blank. i want to talk about things, but no ones answering, and other people i could talk to.. i just dont feel like i bond with. i dont know

This is why events unnerve me,
They find it all, a different story,
Notice whom for wheels are turning,
Turn again and turn towards this time,
All she asks the strength to hold me,
Then again the same old story,
World will travel, oh so quickly,
Travel first and lean towards this time.

Oh, Ill break them down, no mercy shown,
Heaven knows, its got to be this time,
Watching her, these things she said,
The times she cried,
Too frail to wake this time.

Oh Ill break them down, no mercy shown
Heaven knows, its got to be this time,
Avenues all lined with trees,
Picture me and then you start watching,
Watching forever, forever,
Watching love grow, forever,
Letting me know, forever.

bleh my shits overdrawn, now im not going to have any money atleast until tuesday. wtf man

its revolution baby

kill this tooth kill myself kill everyone

Normally when one does their laundry the throw the clothes in the washer...I filled the washer with soup and started it....the clothes just sat there

bloody anus

sheep will not come to this tired thing tonight

yesterday sucked at work, i expect today to suck. i expect friday to suck. i need a vacation....or a stiff drink. i need to work on my temper with the cust, i was called arrogant today...the people ticked me off because they wouldnt listen to me. i wont get into it because it makes me angry and keeps me up at night (hahahahahah...ha..h...)

but thats okay because jesus loves me and gives me hugs at night

i've always been an introvert, happily bleeding

<3 my four door fairlane

my $700 fairlane pwns the rusty as fuck $8000 torino gt

everything i say is a jumbled mess of shit

anime series i've completed

big 0
fullmetal alchemist
full metal panic
full metal panic fumoffu
koi kaze
welcome to the nhk
battle angel
ergo proxy
samurai champloo
ghost in the shell sac
ghost in the shell sac 2nd gig
pumpkin scissors
please teacher
elfen lied
flcl
death note


sheesh i thought i've seen more

she walks over me

so i finally sat down and watched heros....its actually pretty cool. the japanese guy makes me smile. yep

in all seriousness

i wish this week was over with. im tried of taking 50 calls a day. feg i had nummy ramen for dinner. thou im still kinda hungry. im in serious need of new pants. my new pants are already falling apart...i dont know how. bleh

on this date in 2004 meepy died...no wait thats not right

i is no trainer

i trained a girl at work today monday and last friday...why me? i dunno bleh it sucks, but i think i did an ok job. i pirated umk3 which has brought me a solid hour of giggles. friendship...FRIENDSHIP?! AGAIN?! heh bleh..i was pwning the newbs

meepys snoring, i guess i should snore too

beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep beep

is it bad when i wake up in the morning and have to convince myself why i should go to work? bleh it sucks. i didnt sleep well last night. i had a shitty day at work yesterday for reasons i wont care to mention.

i know you are but what am i?

abscess memory with broken fingers

sometimes you have to wonder, what did you ever do to get the life you have. if our lives are planned before we're born, jesus fuck someone pretty sick is running the show. oh wait, not everyones life is full of hurt and loss. oh boy emo is me. nothing in particular in my life sucks at the moment. im doing okay. but i hate feeling so alone. gah its the same old shit. i bitch and moan about the same things. lonely this lonely that. yet, im not out meeting anyone. throw me a bone please. i know theres someone out there who will think im the coolest thing since buttered toast...but im not seeing it. ...and i havent seen it.

war on all sides

it sucks not having someone to go do meaningless things with. like i would really like to go to walmart or to the gamestore...but going alone just doesnt sound fun to me. bleh

i can has blog

i never really check my deviantart page in any more, but as of late some person/thing has been featuring my pictures in their theme blogs, it amuses me. i really need to go take some pictures...but i just havent felt like it. i need to find my argus and go to town. i also wish i could find the one roll of film that i took with jen a while back...maybe i'll get off my ass and finally clean my car out and find it...heh.

X will make the place

ugh its 5:44am i woke to my tooth screaming about 4:50am. i ate some cheese, drank a soda, and took some advil.. now im laying in bed cursing skipping my dentists appointment. im glad the week is almost over. i cant believe its november. it seems yesterday was just my birthday. bleh. ah november the month my mother was born and the one my father died.

feh