I've been on a reading kick as of late, I finished the first vol of sundome and yotsuba! and the fifth of nhk. Im not looking forward to doug going home, as I know my miserable loneliness will come back. I was telling jen having him here reminds me of the time we would spend at his apartment or all of the time he spent at my house playing with my computer or playing games with me.
The deja vu of driving around in a blue fairlane looking for videogames. It gets me all nostalgic. Jen asked what doug and I were going to do the other day..my reply was pick up doug, then brandy go to rounders pizza and cruise the square. Ahh a typical night of my mispent youth. I know Im a more stable minded person then I was then, but I miss those times. Friends family and relationships . Why couldn't I have fixed myself sooner. What if I had taken control of my brain sooner. Would I still have my parents? Brandy?

Ahh the eternal mind fuck of what if