i didnt know vampires bit boobs.

im a fucking miserable human being

i dont know.

the dougcation is coming to an end. we did pretty much what we always did, loaf around play video games, watch tv, and drive around. i got all emo with him the other day. i told him he was really one of only a handful of people that i care about anymore. its nice coming home to someone willing to beat you at street fighter, or someone who watches you play naruto for 5 hours straight. oh well its back to empty houses and selfloathing tomorrow.

so long, farewell, auf wiedersehen, good night.

i'm tired. all the nights staying up and playing games and stuff with doug is catching up to me.

The world needs more cute chubby girls in tight yellow sweaters

re: jp

i picked up most of my problems from my parents. my father was antisocial, and didnt like going out in public...example: he refused to order from drive thru windows for some god unknown reason. he also was also constantly worrying about things example: the "i need the car where is the car i need the car" incident. he would get up in the middle of the night and go nuts because something was bothering him.

my mother was just an emo mess and cried at the drop of a hat. oh my life is misrable i hate your father blah blah i wish i was dead i hate christmas

Not many of the girls in my life would look good in a sailor suit uniform.

I've been on a reading kick as of late, I finished the first vol of sundome and yotsuba! and the fifth of nhk. Im not looking forward to doug going home, as I know my miserable loneliness will come back. I was telling jen having him here reminds me of the time we would spend at his apartment or all of the time he spent at my house playing with my computer or playing games with me.
The deja vu of driving around in a blue fairlane looking for videogames. It gets me all nostalgic. Jen asked what doug and I were going to do the other day..my reply was pick up doug, then brandy go to rounders pizza and cruise the square. Ahh a typical night of my mispent youth. I know Im a more stable minded person then I was then, but I miss those times. Friends family and relationships . Why couldn't I have fixed myself sooner. What if I had taken control of my brain sooner. Would I still have my parents? Brandy?

Ahh the eternal mind fuck of what if

sakura's asshole is wetter then her pussy!!

i am not an otaku

theres just something that makes me twitch about buying things like this in public...the looks i get...the sales girl is prolly gonna be like "omg i sold a fat sweaty hairy guy some porno manga lmao omg wtf bbq lightning bolt."


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i still have the weirdest dreams. sometimes i wish they would happen.

Weekend cliffs

Shot my blackpowder colt copy
Accidenly shot the shooting bench with said gun
Got a new xm antenna and vent mount
Toothache
Threw away most of my old worn out clothes as the cats were using them as a litter box making my room smell flower fresh
Found a few lost good shirts
Hooked up the old desktop
Bought a lens pen
Finished reading yotsuba 1..id stick it in fuka

Now sleep

phonesex

I can has xrated dreams

I don't have very many xrated dreams. This one was kinda weird cause it was about the one girl I went to highschool with. It wasn't to explicit, but it was nice. Afterwards I remember talking about it to people from work in a classroom type setting heh