what a mess

pissing on while pissing off

so all of my friends from work that were coming to the couch warming party all flaked out on me. its because they were all moved to other teams with cooler people. i feel like being put out to pasture.

<3 trannys and lesbos

heh they deleted the video because of copyright concerns..oopsssss

it's always the same with me - ending in the same way

this weekend was okay. friday we were supposed to hang with gijoe for his birthday after work. i showed up there at 815ish. jen and doug showed up right afterwards. we waited for like 40 minutes, then devica showed up. still no joe, so jen, doug and i took off. devica was kinda pissed, but meh, it didnt bother me. joe pulled up right as we got on the highway. i honestly didnt feel like being there. saturday jen and i went to some murder mystery dinner at a country club in the poconos with some of my coworkers. it was good fun, jen was picked as one of the charcters in the show, and some how or another, the bottle of cyanide i was givin at the start of the show was the murder weapon. meh im getting scatter brained.

do what you're gonna do, say what you're gonna say

i think i've offically been disowned by brandy. she scared me pretty good. i reacted to her "you're the only one for me" bullshit the same way i would react to my mother coming back from the dead. part of me thought it was cool, the other part of me was scared shitless. i want *someone*, but i dont really want her. everyone was all omg you should so get back with her, she seems nice. she just wasnt what i wanted. now theres the part of me who wants to lay down on her lap and cry. i think i might be the bipolar one.

as my other post my might have indicated, things have been crazy with work. im stuck working 2nd shift again. i hate it, but what can you do. its so boring the last two hours of my shift. i have no one to talk to. devica was moved to a different project with geo...geo just completely stopped talking to me. it makes me feel kinda shitty, cause i know he has a pretty crappy life and i fell for his woe is me bs. i gave this kid a few old crappy ps1 games and dreamcast and he repays me by ignoring me. and devicas all like omg i miss you john...and im like i miss you too *swoon/sigh/sniff*

dougs been sitting around working on his game all day. it actually looks like a game, a game that more then one person created *cough* mef

I hate this feeling

I have this feeling in my stomach. Im worried about my job. Im worried about falling apart. Sitting here with this sensation in my gut sucks. Meh.