everyone's so intimately rearranged

so the broncos gone. i kinda have mixed feelings about it being gone. it was a decent truck, but had its problems...like the transmission would be totally spaztic sometimes, and other times shift like a new one. i was tired of the oil disappearing for no apparent reason. lets not forget about the electrical crap that would rear its head every so often.

i remember curling up in a ball with the drivers seat reclined one of the times me and jen were going thru our breakup. hail to the theif was playing on the cd player. i was parked in front of dougs apartment...its when he was in texas visiting his parents. the feelings that ran thru my head sitting there sobbing...the bloodstaind fist print on the headliner. it was surreal. i remember wondering if it would make it to texas. it saw me thru my first months at my job, making sure i got there on time. i dont think i've had this much of an emotional attachment to a vehicle since the fairlane.

buggy number two, you did good. i'll miss you.

<3 doug

saferjohn (4:50:41 PM): i've been taking lexapro for year now
saferjohn (4:50:50 PM): hell i've been at my job a year
LemundeFiere (4:51:04 PM): why don't you look into medicinal marijuana?
saferjohn (4:51:08 PM): lol
LemundeFiere (4:51:24 PM): it's got to be healthier than what you're taking

after years of waiting - nothing came

sleeping during the day ftmfl. whats funny is im talking to doug while hes on his lunch break at work heh. he picked up cnc3 so we should be able to play it together on one of his days off this week. i felt bad for giving dougs car away to be crushed...but there really wasnt anything i could do with it. meh im lonely