how much is that bronco in the yard woof woof

ahhhhhhh meh.. the past few days have been meh. went on a shooting spree at the gun range yesterday, i prolly shot 100 rds of 7.62x54r. then i came home and slept...i slept from 230pm yesterday until 930am this morning. wow. started new meds again on friday...i feel *something* when i take them...be that good or bad. as soon as i woke up this morning i worked on switching the wheels from the bronco on to the van. that was an all day affair in the heat...ugh. when i had them switched over i took the bronco for a ride, i went to advance auto, then to dunken for a lemonaid coolatta, to the gas station for 10 bucks in gas and car wash for the bronco. it was interesting to wash the bronco with no back glass in the automatic carwash. jens dad also cooked out today. he made sasuages and hamburgers which were great. now im laying here in bed all clean and cold being meh.

standing in the shadows at the end of the bed...

incest post offices and clam chowder

so yea thats the gist of my weekend. something isnt making a connection in my head...something is being blocked out. seeing somethings just disgust me. seeing a lot of things disgusts me. meh this entry is being forced..i wish i could vent about a lot of things. but i cant step on any toes. i need a hobbie err a hobby.

welcome no where fast
nothing here ever lasts
nothing but memories

living makes me sick
so sick i wish i'd die

i wonder if getting help for my depression early in life would have made things go differently. would i have actually married brandy? i wonder what my relationship with my parents would have been like...ehh what if? fig newtons.

i really should be getting ready for bed and finishing my laundry. but instead, i'd rather write the same old emo'esque shit i've written time after time. whats the point of holding on to these shitty memories. shitty memories of a past life where things where much worse then they are now. but yet i cant bring myself to be any happier now then i was then.

emo'esque

things i once thought unbelievable have all taken place

/emo