no no no

work is becoming stressfull again. i was all over today training people who didnt want to be trained. bleh. no no no. i dont really have much to talk about. other then the same old emo shit about being lonely.

i got a 50 buck gift card from work for good qa...then proceeded to get like 20 coaching sheets. i felt like such a failure, i almost felt like throwing the giftcard away and tearing up the certificate stating im awesome, because honestly im not. im just a misrable fat fuck who cant do anything right. my trucks broken, my job makes me feel like even more of a loser, i dont have any friends. why havent i killed myself yet? oh thats right, because im a loser. *grabs gun and ammo*

bleh

*curls up and cries*