when we started it started, when we were done..well

well the fairlane is registered and insured and im broke as fuck. it has a completely new exhaust from front to back. it has new battery cables. we have new spark plugs and wires and a cap and rotor to put on it. as the title states, when we started the day today, the car still actually started but now all it does is click. i know what the problem is though. everything needs to be buttoned up.

i need new clothes bad. i have basically two "good" shirts and zero good pairs of pants. one pair of my pants is missing the fly button, the other is starting to come apart because they're getting old. maybe i can trade a weekend of fairlane rides for pants to jen. bleh

self destructive phase

so here i am...in bed...naked and clean. listening to bush, waiting for a download to finish. the alarm is set for 8:15am tomorrow. the clothes are in the dryer. the car has a full tank of gas, the turnsignals work again. i have 25 bucks in cash to my name at the moment. many daydreams running thru my head today. i want to buy a lincolin mark viii, cause you know, its just a cobra with saddle leather seats. i just remembered theres a shotgun in my trunk that needs to be removed, heh. i'll be in the same position next weekend, and maybe three weeks from this weekend. i think life is living me. why is it i had more when i didnt amount to anything, then i do now? now that i can function as real person, i have jackshit.

damnit

boy you just a stupid bitch

not much has been going on lately. i spent the last of my tax return fixing my car. speaking of, jen has it. heh. manny wants to go to the gun range tomorrow..but i dont. the guns i want to shoot are to expensive to shoot..and watching him shoot is boring. i worked two excruciating hours of ot today. i called mickey a bitch because...well she is. now i shall jerkoff and go to sleep.

pretty penny was her name

this weekend wasnt really productive, or was it? i started talking to mickey again, which is prolly for the best. its nice to talk to her about erroneous things. shes great for laying on and is rather comfortable. in other news i bought final fantasy 6 for the game boy advance. i've sworn to myself i'll beat it. im about two hours in right now. im in the returners cave. i finished up my tax return papers and sent out the signature thing, so now i just wait on my cash. i also watched flags of our fathers which i thought was pretty well done. manny complained there was enough
"jap shooting". i feel sorry for the soldiers in iraq, no ones going to look back on them as people look back on the soldiers of ww2.

And spaceboy I've missed you
Spinning round my head
And any way you choose me
You'll break instead

Watch me
Death defy
Defile my life

I don't need
I don't care
Please

I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
I want to go home
'cause when a lover aches
That's when a lover breaks
I want to go home
I want to go home

And spaceboy they'll kill me
Before I'm dead and gone
And any way you choose me
It won't be wrong
And anyway you choose me
We won't belong

We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong
We won't belong

a rebel with a heart of gold

so when i get my income tax refund im not sure what i want to do with it. i can upgrade the bronco one of two ways, get something else, or fix it up a little. i want something that goes vroom so i can go drag racing. broncos and buggies of the like dont go vroom. i'd like either a mustang or camaro/firebird, which can be had rather cheap and go vroom on the cheap too. but i dont know. live for yourself or live within reason? meh