when we started it started, when we were done..well

well the fairlane is registered and insured and im broke as fuck. it has a completely new exhaust from front to back. it has new battery cables. we have new spark plugs and wires and a cap and rotor to put on it. as the title states, when we started the day today, the car still actually started but now all it does is click. i know what the problem is though. everything needs to be buttoned up.

i need new clothes bad. i have basically two "good" shirts and zero good pairs of pants. one pair of my pants is missing the fly button, the other is starting to come apart because they're getting old. maybe i can trade a weekend of fairlane rides for pants to jen. bleh

no no no

work is becoming stressfull again. i was all over today training people who didnt want to be trained. bleh. no no no. i dont really have much to talk about. other then the same old emo shit about being lonely.

i got a 50 buck gift card from work for good qa...then proceeded to get like 20 coaching sheets. i felt like such a failure, i almost felt like throwing the giftcard away and tearing up the certificate stating im awesome, because honestly im not. im just a misrable fat fuck who cant do anything right. my trucks broken, my job makes me feel like even more of a loser, i dont have any friends. why havent i killed myself yet? oh thats right, because im a loser. *grabs gun and ammo*

bleh

*curls up and cries*

how to disappear completely

i called off work today, because i can barely speak. i can hardly talk now, but meh. im not really sick per say, i just cant talk and have a stuffed up nose. oh so yeah, im sick. im having one of those meh moments in life where im really lonely. i dont have anyone to go home too and talk about my day. i dont have anyone to sit and watch goofy anime with. i dont know how much more of this i can take.

i felt...

i felt like typing up a big entry. but meh..to much work.

synchronoss is seri0us business

i totally exploded at one of the newbies today. i've had it with stupid people and crappy pay. when i'm getting totally red faced pissed at someone because they think they know everything or that what advice we're giving them is totally wrong something needs to change. i dont get red faced pissed at people, its not me. i try to be as passive as i can, but i almost went crazy and slappedahoe. meh.

welcome to the j.m.b!

another work week has come to an end. it sucks cause now i cant vent about work like i would want to without it getting back to everyone and their mom. thanks for not allowing me to speak my mind in my own blog. meh anyways heres to the best anime evar.

boy you just a stupid bitch

not much has been going on lately. i spent the last of my tax return fixing my car. speaking of, jen has it. heh. manny wants to go to the gun range tomorrow..but i dont. the guns i want to shoot are to expensive to shoot..and watching him shoot is boring. i worked two excruciating hours of ot today. i called mickey a bitch because...well she is. now i shall jerkoff and go to sleep.

oh wait, what?!

procrasstination, yep thats me. i dont want to go bed, i dont want to go to work tomorrow. i dont want to do anything. im going to go to work, and im going to feel worthless...because thats what going there makes me feel. i enjoyed my job when it was strictly awswering phones. not processing orders, not doing rmas, not issuing credits. its funny to think i've almost been at this job a year. goddamnit i want something else.

work, why have you forsaken me?

typical monday at work. took a ton of verify calls. work sucks as usual sometimes i just want to take my stapler and throw it at someone. then i start to think...why in the fuck do i have a stapler? i dont deal with paper on daily basis, i dont print things, hell they rarely give us any handouts. actually the story behind my stapler is i dug it out of the trash...awhile back they were cleaning out a closet at work and in the trash bin was a perfect stapler half full of staples. i had to take it for my own. for the past three monthes this stapler has sat proudly under my monitor. it hasnt stapled a piece of paper once in my possession. it just sits there in all its swingline 747 glory. i wish i were that stapler.